The Beginning

Well, I never thought I'd have a blog. I am using this as a way to hold myself accountable. I want to lose weight and by golly, I am determined to do whatever I can to do it. As my first post, I'd like to disclose a little bit about myself.

I am a 21 y/o college student. I currently working towards becoming an RN. I will also have a minor in Spanish, unless I study abroad again, in which case I will have a major in Spanish along with Nursing. I am involved in a co-ed honors fraternity called Phi Sigma Pi. With the help of this organization and college in general, I gained a more self-confidence than I ever had in high school. College proved to be a place for me to fit in. I was one of many "bigger" girls, as opposed to high school where I felt like 1 of 5 "bigger" girls (it was a small private school). I am an only child and my family means the world to me.

I think that covers enough about me, on to the reason I want to lose the weight. I have always been a chubby girl. Although as a kid, I noticed it alot less. High school rolled around and I began to notice that in my school I was one of few girls who were chubby. It was disheartening. I had low self-esteem. I wouldn't say that it stopped me from having fun and making friends, because I did both of those things. (I have some of the best friends a girl could ask for.) So like I said, I had fun and I made friends but I never really branched out and I ALWAYS cared about what people thought. I could go into more detail but I think you get the point, chubby high school girl with low self-esteem.

So, I graduate. I move off to college. (A whopping 45 min from home.) Who would have thought that I would find self-confidence here?! I loved/love college. I met so many different people. I would walk around campus and think, "Wow, I blend in here. I feel like I don't stand out as the token fat girl." I joined the aforementioned organization and my self-confidence sky-rocketed. I enjoyed my life and everything in it. I was cute and fun and people liked me. The weight was still there but with the added self-confidence, it didn't seem quite as bad.

Cut to now. I am still heavy. I'm 5'4" and if we're getting technical, I'm obese for my height. When I look in the mirror, I don't see obese. I see what I have loving come to call "pleasantly plump". I have always, always wanted to lose a significant amount of weight and really feel like my inside matches my outside. I consider myself to be attractive and I can only imagine how much better I'd feel about myself if I lost 60 pounds. (Not to mention how good I'd look in some skinny jeans and stilettos!)

So, I'm 5'4" and I weigh.....well, I weigh about 210 pounds which I am ashamed to say. Sometime I feel like that number is not right. When I look in the mirror, I think, "201? Really?" To some I am sure I look that heavy, to myself and my amazing friends I don't look quite that heavy. So starting tomorrow, Monday, I plan on changing my lifestyle. Healthier food choices, more exercise, and sigh, no soda. I will post pictures along the way.

Here's to what I hope will be the beginning of a weight loss journey that will lead to a happier, healthier me.